To other people, I'm the girl who has everything. But my boyfriend tells me I've become more bitter and angry all the time. I don't know what's wrong with me. Why can't I just be happy with my life? I have a great job, good pay, good boyfriend who just proposed to me this year, and a not so bad family. Yet I still find all the faults in life and just complain and complain. I hate that my mom's always complain and yelling about stupid things. Yet as I grow older and older I'm turning into her! WTF. I don't want to be bitter. I want to be happy again, but I don't know how to start. Why is it that I used to be such a bubbly and joyful person and now my smiles in pictures all look so fake. I don't smile because I'm happy. I smile because the camera's aimed at me. I just graduated this June and no more school... so maybe the working life is stressing me out on the inside and slowly building up anger. I have nowhere to let out my feelings except to people around me and I don't know what to do! And many of the people I've met this past year are bitter and mean. At first they told me I was too naive and too nice to people. But now I find myself turning into the monsters and bitches that they are. I really need to stop hanging around all those negative people. They turned me into depressed bomb waiting gto explode!!! I don't care if anyone actually reads this. I just needed a place to let out my anger. I hate myself.
Dont hate yourself, its normal that feelings like this arise at one point or another in life. Maybe you are right, it could be related to your transition from school to work that is causing you stress. Or maybe the fact that something unresolved (an event/ argument with someone/ etc...) is bothering you? As a suggestion (if you do not have the habit of doing exercise), go join a yoga club and gym, a good daily or every 2nd day work out would do you good. To temporary help you feel better, eat dark chocolates.
^^It might be the transition from school to a real job that is making you bitter. I think what wind said is important; you should take time to do yoga, exercise, or some form of meditation. This may also sound dumb but helping others will make you feel better. Maybe help out at a soup kitchen for the homeless, or give to the poor. It also seems as though that you have not had time for yourself (just finished school, started the job, plans for marriage). You really need some alone time and I highly recommend meditation (to clear your mind). Try not to think about how other people annoy you because that will only make you feel worse.
I hate people too. Especially those idiots that sign themselves up for the enhancement thingy and then comes running complaining about receiving those e-mail and blaming other people. #@$@#$ but generally people are good natured ...yea...eat some good chocolates...dark ones are good...
she's turning into.. an emo! seriously.. you need some kinda hobby or something.. since you got the money.. start collecting something that'll make you happy...
Be positive about the things I am sure your bitter state of mind will change soon.Otherwise you will become more and more bitter and the friends in your list will shrink.You may loose all the friends.
wow guess ya getting to be very cynical about things which happens as you get older..i think... -__- but like people have said try finding a hobby and making new friends that way or join some kind of class
it's probably just the environment you're in .. stop hanging around those negative people! and maybe because your life is so good, you're bored, and you want more, so everything that's good, you don't see as a good thing
omg...u sound like me. haha. except u seem to be in a better place then me. the good money part i mean. anyways, honestly, one way to let it out is thru exercising. i know it sounds lame, but it really does get out the frustration, anger, stress, and just all that unhappy stuff. try kickboxing. really really really good way to let out anger and ur body is gonna thank you for the workout. really, i do it twice a week and it really does work. my mom used to call me 'mung gerng'---> the gerng part should sound like ginger in cantonese. i would wake up and just want everyone to just piss off. it wouldn't take much for me to just go nuts and start yelling at anyone and anything. also, i find buying shoes really really really makes me happy.
haha yeah sometimes I just feel like everyone should leave me alone and if people talk to me, I get pissed off .. if they ask me a question, I feel like I'm being interrogated, even though that's obviously not the case and yeah shopping usually makes me feel a lot better ^-^
it's things like that that make pple turn to drugs... next thing you a druggie and all messed up out partying 24/7 thinking you're having the time of your life when it's actually slowly dying away...
hahha yea.. but I'd feel lot better keep my ish.. -lol hahaha damn I can see it now... she's got with nowhere to spend it on.. so she goes out n buys alcohol... drink all her pain away.. then next thing you know... she's buying drugs and doing all kinds of stuff trying to make her feel better.. ;
You have a good boyfriend, job, family and I'm geussing since you graduated earlier this year, that you're pretty young. If you concentrate at yourself for a while. Are you happy where you live? Are you overall happy with who you are? I think you have to find time for yourself to relax and think about where this bitterness and anger come from. I find myself a little bit in the same situation as you; This semester, when I'm in school with my friends I laugh and enjoy everything everyday. But when I was at home I was usually bitter and sometimes angry. I'm fine with my looks, I do well in school, I don't have a guy (and doesn't want to either). It's really annoying and depressing to feel bitter and angry all the time, but hang in there! A better day will come!
..To some people, In the world of perspective there is a blue pill and red pill. (If you watched The Matrix, you'll understand) You have reality, but what is reality? Well it is what you want it to be. Not I nor anyone can change what you want to think or do. We can only give you suggestions. It is what you do with these suggestions if any, that will dictate the outcome of your future life. You've seen what your parents have given you throughout life. Do you see some right in them, or do you see wrong? Now is the right more than wrong or wrong more than right? Why are they bitter? Is it work related, money related, family related? That you'll have to look deeply into, cause only you know your family more that anyone or I do. Everyone has a different story to tell. What do you want to tell your grand children in the future? ...
