well i kinda tried being friendly today and told her to check out this song and said wont btoher you coz ure porabbly busy ro soemthin and left it like that but she ditn give me any response.....so you think i should still type her another email? i mean i really dun mind writing it coz i have loads of words to spill alrady and im plannin to start my paragraph off somthin like this "heey.....i know ive once said that i wont msg you again....but im gonna take that bac coz i really dont want our either love or friendship relationship to come to an end right now and like this.....i just cant get over it.....to be honest after the first time talkin to you.....u already took a very important place within my heart....i duno if this is love at first sight or wawteva but you certainly did.....i cant get you outta my mind....outta my dreams....i duno if you remembered...that morning after i talked to you....i woke up unconsciously coz i felt that you were around me.....so i woke up and there, i saw you goin online right at that very moment.....and that happened the next day as well....i wish it was purely coincidence but i cant.....i really do believe theres somethin between us... other than that..............the london thing didnt only freak you out but it freaked myself out as well......i couldnt believe how and what made that possible.....for the past few yrs ive been tryin my ass off persudadin my parents to allow me to fly aorund by myself and visit my mates.....and the only answer i got was a no.....but why does she have to say yeS to me at this moment.....i jus dun understand that either...... ever since ive came to canada......my life was flipped....i never actually laughed for real and from the bottom of my heart and all the stress from uni i felt suffocated.....i had no one to turn to...my friends were all in europe and im here by myself.....but then you came in to my life and you just brightened up everything......tats why i told you i feel as if im in a dream you pulled me outta the pit i was in....and coz of that ive done and asked numerous of stupid things..i was scared that everything wil run away from me and turn it bac the way it was for the past 5 months.....i know this must be tough to believe coz this all sound pretty much like sweet talking but i can swear on anything tat im sayiin the truth out.....you made a difference to me......you brought laughter to me, you brought feelings ive never and havent felt ever before...... im really glad that ive met you, i truely do.....im sorry for everythign ive done that caused you to feel the way you are right now.....but i really do hope we can still be friends.....i really want to get to know you better and you even said so too......please give me the chance to do so......forget about the london thing....it doenst matter anymore all i want is to get back the way we were once was.....i know its hard to forget things that happened....but perhaps we can build upon it and know each other better this way? i duno if you are willin to do so with me.....but can you give me a chance to know you better as friends? i promise i wont do anymore stupid things.....i really treasure our relationship... 'If i could have a star for everytime youve made me smile...i will have a whole galaxy of them" i didnt say this to you as a pick up line but to you to show you how happy i am when im with you.......i really want to make you feel the same way as i do .....will you plz give me the chance to do so, as a friend? i dun care about what will happpen between us in the future and it may turn out the same as now but i dun care......i am willin to take the risk, for you are really someone special to me.... its ok if you dun wanna....and im not pressuring you at all......i jus wanna hear about wat you truthfuly think......and i'll understand ya i promise......."
Way too much insecurities hold in your messages. You're as much uncertain about this as you are of your own life. As I said before, wait a few days first....cool your head and gather your thoughts before you trip yourself. Well judging from what you wrote so far....I'd be scared of reading it out loud. I am going to be blunt and tell you to just scratch that. They're jumble of thoughts which dig deep into your own issues of insecurity. And you're talking about love? 6 hrs of conversation and you want to start using/misuing this word? -nono the kinda tried issues is again showing more insecurities. You have to make a decision into diving towards the pool or staying clear from it. You can't just dip your foot to test the temperature. Right now you are giving yourself no chance. I am willing to help you out but you gotta help yourself out first. Gather your thoughts....process it and put some structure behind it. Post it and we'll go from there. Right now, you're about to crash through more brickwalls. One of these times, you'll completely fall off the cliff. Pls. take some time away from this...think clearly first....then talk.
hahaha acutally i tend to alwasy bash myself against the wall in relationships....im die hard hahaha..really....i went out with this girl even tho she cheated on me twice....im tat kinda guy.....its stupid i know! so DC....yeea i read it again....i know wat you mean....i know i used the word "love" which is not appropirate....i know...... and i guess its not that impactful.....but yea i took the entire day to think over this and i didnt jus sit at home......i went out went for a swim.....and right now im pretty much clear headed but im not gonna dive my ass into the pool just YET like you said......and right now....i jus want make everything go bac to the way it was.....i know its gonna be hard...but im willin to try.......but can you tell me what kinda stuff did i say in the thing i typed out jus now which showed like insecurity?
The general tone of your messages/paragraphs shows how insecure you are. I am not going to waste my time and pinpoint it for you. I'd just scrap that and start again from square one. Your only chance is diving back into the pool. If you plan on stay on land; like I've said before....fold up your tent and move on. Sometimes there's a fine line btw two people. You're either a couple with an ultimate connection or you aren't even friends. There is no chance to go back the way it was....this is not a movie. You can only move forward. If you really want to have a chance to regain that trust....you have to sound resolute with your apology letter. From reading your previous msges...you have absolutely no idea where you want to head with this new found connection. You gotta write your draft with your heart. Use your head to edit. I wasn't there when you talked to her for 6 hrs straight so I can begin to understand what type of person she is. Which is why I stress in knowing the little details in life. The answer to the person's heart lies right there. You need to turn back the hands of time and dissect what the conversations were about...her responses, her tone... Then again...if u paid attentions in details from the start...this would've never happened. Let this be a lesson to you my friend.
